Good question!
It has been a while that I took the time to put some of my thoughts into words. There was a lot to write about and at the same time nothing that I found worthwhile sharing. So here are some lines for the meaningful people/souls who like to read up on what’s keeping me busy and my mind entertained.
After the World Championships in Calgary (June) I took some much appreciated time to surplus life the way it al so suits me the best. Meaning indulging on good food, loving my spare time and investing in great company. This al so comes with decluttering stuff I’ve accumulated within the last couple of years. Stuff a.k.a. things, believes etc. When the summer comes around I feel the itch to evaluate what I’ve been doing, what I want to do and reevaluate my plan(s) if needed. This might sounds abstract and kind of crazy but it seems to work for me. It must have something to do with an upcoming birthday or just being restless besides being young ?
Thinking about the World Championships, that didn’t had the outcome I wished for and at the same time exceeded my expectations, has been a big part of “my evaluating and decluttering”. Talking about it just as much. I’ve noticed it kept my mind and body very occupied in a good and less good way. Wondering about the things that I’ve could done better or different on that specific meet. Going back to the gym felt somewhat like a hassle, not fun at all times and made me question if I still got what IT takes to be lifting weights. I think you may call that disappointment. After talking ( a lot) with my coach Wim Wam …he did all the talking….he didn’t give me (enough) space and time to ‘check out’.
Thanks to Wim I understand some more valuable things.
- In stead of carrying all this ‘weight’ of disappointment with me I should embrace it and make me lift it to a higher level.
- What doesn’t kills me only makes me stronger and it’s all part of the game to keep on striving for what I want and believe in.
It took me some time to come to terms with my absence of satisfaction, and I’m taking (baby)steps to fully embrace it. Just as much as I’m with letting (things) go. The easiest way to describe this feeling is like being a writer who’s dealing with a writers block. When it comes to mind I’ll take some extra time out to write more about it and how I deal to overcome it.
While life happens I am making efforts to be on my A-game. Resulting in making depositis on my personal bank account. Since I’m not that good in mathematics it makes no sense writing them on my financial account. ?. Every (kilo)gram comes with determination on every rep and (central) training, as shown in the video below.
“Every race is an opportunity to measure yourself against your own potential”- Source unknown-
Leaves me with nothing else left to say than wishing you a nice day.
Untill we meet again
XOXO
Iris